I had the ideal childhood.
I always wanted to do my best, and I always had a desire to reach “perfection” in everything I did.
This was a positive thing when it came to competitive running in high school. Running was a passion of mine, and I loved every minute of it. When I finished high school in 2008, I ran my first marathon shortly thereafter and a second one right after that.
During the training process for the second marathon, I became very focused on healthy eating so I could be in the best physical health for the race. Sounds perfectly fine, right?
I gradually became more and more obsessed with “healthy” eating.
To me, that meant eat less and run more.
If I was going to restrict my food intake, I was REALLY going to restrict it. This meant that I was working out at least twice a day every day and sometimes 3 times a day.
Family gatherings that would include large quantities of food made me nervous and anxious. I couldn’t enjoy college with my friends because my mind was so taken over by this terrible sickness. My body was slowly breaking down, and I was doing more damage than I could have imagined.
I was in denial.
The voice in my head told me I was worthless and a failure if I gave in to any temptation to eat or skip a workout. This had to stop.
There were these self destructive thoughts that had taken over, and didn’t take me long to realize I needed help and I needed help soon…
I knew I couldn’t help myself, I knew my parents couldn’t help me, and I knew my friends couldn’t help me.
After a Family intervention, we decided it was time for me to attend a treatment center.
The one thing I knew for sure that could help save me from this disease was God and his power to heal. Without faith, trust, and a great deal of prayer, I truly don’t know if I would have been able to beat this disease; I developed a stronger faith and a stronger relationship with God.
I have always had a strong faith, but throughout this process, By putting all of my trust in God, I was able to give all of my troubles to him and trust that He could help me get through this trial in my life.
During my time there, I learned a great deal about myself and began to love and appreciate ME again.
I could feel God working in me the entire time, and I was constantly reassured that He was with me. The treatment center helped me, but it was definitely not a cure all system. I returned home after a short stay.
Despite that time, parts of me were still so fixated on diet and exercise. I had gotten better, but I was still struggling, and it wasn’t until July 2012 that things began to really move in a positive direction.
I had worked out with Evan at the Louisiana Tech athletic center, so I knew any gym he was opening himself must be great. I now know that God introduced me to Evan during my college years for a reason.
Evan and Lauren opened Crossfit Ruston, and I jumped right in when their doors opened.
I really had no idea what I was getting myself into, but after the first week of CrossFit, I was hooked. This was totally unlike anything I had ever done. But I truly loved CrossFit from the moment I started. I wanted to learn, and I wanted to improve.
This was a significant turning point in my journey.
If I wanted to get better at crossfit, I knew that nutrition would play a major role in that. My mom and I were introduced to the Paleo diet at CFR, and we tried it.
By following this LIFESTYLE, I realized that I could look fit and thin without looking like a walking skeleton.
Before CrossFit, I saw “strength” as being able to starve myself or overtrain.
Looking back, I can see how I was so wrong. Through working at CrossFit Ruston, I have an entirely new view of strength.
Strength is overcoming obstacles that at one time seemed impossible.
Strength is getting down on your knees, surrendering your problems to God and letting him take over in your life.
Strength is being 1% better every day.
I have gained so many lasting friendships because of CrossFit Ruston, and I am so thankful to Evan, Lauren, and all the amazing members whom have made CrossFit Ruston what it is today.
I love that I get to train with my Parents, and it has brought us so much closer as a family.
I can honestly say I am happier, healthier, and stronger than ever.
Thank you God for healing.
Thank you to my family and friends for your support.
And thank you Evan and Lauren for CrossFit Ruston and the impact it has had and continues to have in my life.
I am forever grateful,